Je te serais fidèle (I’ll Always Be There)

Roch Voisine ‘Je te serais fidèle’

Je Te Serai Fidéle

Roch Voisine

Toi et moi on a fait l’histoire ensemble
Et mis en mémoire des rêves qui nous ressemblent
Toi et moi on vivait debout simplement
A toujours regarder droit devant
On avait toujours 20 ans

I’ll always be there…
Malgré la peur de se brûler les ailes
I’ll always be there…
Tant qu’il y aura dans nos
cœurs une flamme éternelle
I’ll always be there…
Malgré la peur de retomber du ciel
I’ll always be there…
Jusqu’au dernier jour nous on
restera fiers et rebelles

Je te serai fidèle
Je te serai fidèle
Je te serai fidèle…

Just My Thoughts…

by Syd

To the most important man in my life (other than my father ), I’m really missing you, luv. I first thought of sending you an email but as I was reading your blog “again”, I thought of posting a “reply” blog instead.

I LOVE YOU! I don’t think I will ever get tired of saying those words to you over and over, even if we’re already old. I thank God that I found you, the one treasure that I mean to cherish forever. You give me joy, and love and peace of mind even if we’re far away from each other. You are my everything.

Some people may find our situation odd or ridiculous, especially those who are not in favor of long distance relationships; still others certainly think ours would not last, but we know better, don’t we? Our love grows stronger as time passes by. And the more trials we face, the harder we fall for each other. I know you’ll agree with me, because we think alike. You often tell me I get in your head, remember? 

I long for the day that we will finally be together and start a new life with each other…And just like what you said, “a new beginning”. 

This is my way of letting the world know how much I LOVE YOU, MY BABY!!!

The End?… / A New Beginning…

by Foxx

The End?…

            It all started around three and a half years ago when the woman I loved told me she was leaving. I was devastated. Although we never had the perfect relationship, I thought we were in love and it didn’t matter. I was wrong.

Her explanation for leaving seemed weak, nothing that some counselling couldn’t take care of, but I felt there was more behind it. I never got an official reason why she left but I did notice that we started becoming more distant when she started doing internet chat. I didn’t give it much thought at that time because she referred to them as just “friends”. I let it go. Mistake. Over time, I noticed she seemed more interested in chatting than in me. I didn’t do anything since it was giving me more opportunity to do the things that I wanted to do. We were both being selfish. I caught her a few times involved in something “racy” with her “friends” but we worked it out because I didn’t want to lose her. Another mistake… I had the opportunity to seek professional help and I blew it.

The words came from her lips… “I’m leaving”… it felt like a red-hot dagger shoved through my chest into my heart. I couldn’t focus on anything. My world came to an end… or so I thought…

A New Beginning…

            It took me about two years to get over my ex… one year to get over the pain… another year to get over the anger… and although my heart was still healing, I knew that it was time to move on.

            It was hard though. I was in a relationship for so long that I had no idea how to meet someone. I wasn’t looking for a one-night stand or a short-term relationship… I wanted to be back in love. I knew that bars and taverns would be awful places to find my true love… friends even suggested I look at the supermarkets or church to find someone… I knew I’d never have the courage to do something like that. I needed to build confidence before I could move on… well, I used to chat on the internet and although I had some resentment towards internet chat for obvious reasons, I thought that maybe it would be a good place to start.

            Several years earlier, my brother sent me an invitation to a social networking site consisting of people who shared stories and pictures of their travels. I never really paid any attention to it for a long time but I thought I should put some work into it to see what happened. It wasn’t long before I started receiving viewers and friend requests. I ignored these. I knew nothing about the person so how could they be requesting friendship? Then I received a message from a woman in my country. She wanted to exchange e-mails and chat. I thought that this would be the opportunity to try my conversational skills so I thought I would give it a try. By the end of that chat, the woman sounded like she was ready to take me to bed! NOPE! Not what I was looking for! I was scared to death at how fast that woman moved… so that was the last time I talked to her.

            Time went by… more friend requests… ignored. Then I received a message from an Irish beauty. We talked back and forth for a while but we were rarely online at the same time and it looked like she was only interested in “flirty fun”. I moved on. More friend requests and again, I ignored them. I was starting to get frustrated with trying to find somebody to chat with, until I received a friend request from a pretty girl… not that the other girls were not pretty, but this one was different… something drew me to her. I sent her a message displaying my odd sense of humour to see what her reaction would be. A little while later, I received a message back from her.  I was blown away by her intelligence; I knew I had to talk to her. I responded, letting her know that I would like to be friends. We started chatting back and forth. We talked as friends for a while but in my heart I knew I wanted more. Because of the distance between us and not wanting to damage our friendship, I tried to ignore the feeling, but found myself getting jealous whenever she mentioned another guy, wondered what she was doing when we weren’t talking, looking at her pictures over and over again… I couldn’t get her out of my mind. One day she questioned me about my feelings toward her… I had never lied to her and even though I knew it could damage our friendship, I couldn’t deny to her or myself what I felt. I revealed my true feelings to her and with my heart in my throat, waited for her response. To my delight, she revealed that she felt the same! Years of pain, anger and heartbreak were stripped away in that moment. I had found HER!

            Though we are a world apart and have been through some trials, our love for one another burns brighter with every passing day. I know it’s just a matter of time before we are together… FOREVER…

Part I: The Meeting (This was when it all started)

by: Syd

Sometimes some things happen that we cannot grasp; but everything happens for a reason. And I guess it was the same thing with what happened to us.

It was I who found him. And it was during a time in my life when I was really feeling so down. I found this site for travelers who want to exchange ideas and meet people. It was not a dating site. I tried to browse several profiles and clicked those which I found to be interesting. I remembered I clicked his and sent a friendly invitation; I did the same to others, with the hope that one of them would accept.

After a couple of days or so, I checked my profile and found a message from him:

Hello Miss Syd, thanks for stopping by my site. I see you have requested for me to add you as a friend and yet we’ve never officially met, so now I’m gonna make you work for it .. I want you to send me a list, song, poem, love note….or whatever you want to convince me you are worthy of my friendship…. if you impress me, I’ll consider your request.(It doesn’t take much to impress me. ) If you choose not to respond then I guess we’ll pass like two ships in the night never knowing what could have been…*sniff*… well I’m sure you’ll get over it someday… don’t beat yourself up. Anyway… Peace, Love and Underwear. FoxxSlayer.

Honestly speaking, I felt a bit surprised, a bit annoyed, a bit challenged and a bit excited the moment I started reading his letter. Immediately after I was done, I sent him my reply:

hi,

i see you have certain requirements and tests before you accept someone’s friendship request…hmmm…rather unusual, i should say. i feel like i’m in an audition or i’m applying for a job, lolz!

well, i believe the only thing that i can do to convince you to become friends with me is my pure and genuine intention. that’s all. true friendship can be expressed in many ways. but it can only be done if two people will give each other a chance to prove to one another that they are willing to give it a try…

i hope that principle will work with us.

anyway, i am here to offer my sincere intention of friendship. and i will be glad to hear that others will accept it…including you.

Have a nice day, FoxxSlayer!

I received another reply from him:

Hey Syd,

OK… pure and genuine intention, I hear, is the best kind of intention, so I am honored to pursue a friendship with you…. Wow! THAT sounded cheesy! Anyway… I wasn’t trying to set requirements or test ya… I just wanted to see if you would do it…… although, a poem would have been nice. Well I hope to talk to ya later and get to know ya…. Oh… and when you get to know me, remember this…. you have no one but yourself to blame! ciao!

My reply to this was:

Hi Foxx,

so you like poems? well, sorry i didn’t have much time to send you one, but maybe in the coming days…anyway, I’m glad and I thank you for accepting my friendship…err…why would I blame myself? …for what???

have a great day!

Our online conversation started in June 23, 2008 and went on continuously up to this day…Little did we know that those simple exchanges of words would be the start of a wonderful friendship that would eventually blossom into a promise of undying love for each other…

It’s been a wonderful feeling that I never want to end. Despite the trials that keep coming my way, it’s his love that’s keeping me strong and giving me hope.

Two Worlds That Keep Us Apart

My Luv

by: FoxxSlayer

I told you that i would write you a poem.. i hope you like it luv

My Luv

How can I ever thank you

For coming into my life?

Living in darkness

I began my search for light

And there you were

The answer to my prayers

You took me as I was

A broken vessel in need of repair

You healed my fractures with your heart

And filled me up with your love

My mind plagued by chaos

Was calmed by your heartfelt words

My soul tormented by dread

Was soothed by your sweet voice

My dreams that were once empty

Are now filled with visions of you

My eyes that were once blind

Now see what true love can be

My heart lay

Shattered in my hands

I gave it to you

And it became whole again

Changed is the life I once knew

Gone are the memories of loneliness

My love burns for you

With the intensity of a million suns

Falling stars in the night sky

Are not as they seem

Rather they are tears shed by angels

In awe of your beauty

Love flows freely from your heart

Like a waterfall pouring over me

Cleansing my wounds of the past

And washing away the darkness

You have given me

The strength to love again

You are my new beginning

With no end

You are my hope

My world

My life

My future

My forever

My Luv

* I love you so very much my angel… MWAH!!